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Post by Megan72087 on Mar 8, 2004 15:21:23 GMT -5
my best friend was 17 years old breathing a week ago but that's all over now
my best friend has been dead (on the inside) a lot longer than when she was considered dead from lack of a pulse
my best friend promised me that this would never come to this and yet it has
and if I could speak a few words to her now Id give her an ear full because she took a bit of everybody with her when she slit main arteries with her 13 year old brothers hunting knife
I told her that she was a big part of my heart and that with a piece of your heart missing you cannot breathe and you would surly suffocate well I'm not suffocating but I'm drowning in tears I have been crying for a week
this girl that I've known most of my life the one who had the best side of the locket while i have the friends side has abandoned me and all I can think is I'm freaking selfish but not as selfish as she was for giving up on us all
the thing is we all have our problems but this is not the way to go about it
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Post by John Barnett on Mar 8, 2004 16:18:35 GMT -5
This was amazing, very tragic, I am sorry. The ending rings out so true, and yet is so often goes unheard. Welcome to Poet Club Megan, I hope to see more of you.
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Post by sweetest17sin on Mar 11, 2004 23:02:35 GMT -5
hey there...first of all, i am so sorry. secondly, nice job on the poem. thirdly...i would just like to speak for your friend....in a way. ive never been in your situation, i've never lost a friend to suicide, but i have been in hers. yes, it is selfish of her, but unless you have really been through it, you have no idea. sometimes, your mind continues to tell you how worthless you are, how no one loves you, how much you will never amount to anything, and goes on and on about so many negative things that you cannot see the good no matter how hard you try, and no matter how much you wish you could have the strength to stay in this world, you know leaving it will cure your pain. that is where the selfishness comes in, but sometimes, there is nothing left. i, myself, struggled w/ this. i was suicidal. thankfully, there were only two ways i would go about it. we did not own a gun, so there went one way. i dont want to post my other idea because i dont want someone suffering now to get that idea, but there are reaons i couldnt do that as well. now that i look back, it was probably whatever little bit of hope i had in me holding me back. i also had ppl watching me like a hawk, and whenever i was at the brink i'd talk to my bf. he was the one who snapped me out of everything. so i am not saying what your friend did is right. i understand you are hurting and angry, but just try to even imagine what she was going through and you will understand why she felt it was what she must do. even when someone tells you they wont do it, dont trust them. when someone is that upset, words mean nothing. once again i am sorry. hang in there!
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Post by amberputis on Mar 14, 2004 9:05:02 GMT -5
well this is very sad, i too am verrrry sorry! Umm, i definitely thank you for sharing this i can only imagine how hard it is for you. But you did a fabulous job on this...i agree with many of your points
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2004 17:16:51 GMT -5
Tragic, emotional poem. I'm sorry for your loss...
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Post by Seth on Mar 22, 2004 16:12:13 GMT -5
First off, welcome to the site, I hope you like it here... Second, I can so relate to this piece, I have had friends who killed themselves because life was hard on them... You've written an excellent piece, truly an emotional and powerful poem.
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Post by SilverEyes on Apr 4, 2004 2:29:56 GMT -5
I'm sorry for your loss and hers. You sound like such a good friend and now she's missing out.
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Post by T.J. Barber on Apr 13, 2004 20:09:23 GMT -5
Since you only have one post, I take it that you haven't been back to read any of these. However, I feel compelled to reply. I had a very dear friend that did almost the same thing. He did not succeed in his attempt but he was to close for comfort. It saddened me greatly. I do feel your pain. I hope things better for you. God Bless, Tj
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Post by angel on Apr 14, 2004 19:07:16 GMT -5
I believe that everything, EVERYTHING that happens in our lives, something good comes from it. This is a tragic time for you, but you have to look at what good, however hard it may be, that has come from it.
One example: don't make the same mistake she did. From this happening, you have seen all of the hurt that she has put others through. People will look at this, and think twice about doing the same thing. From her doing this to herself, she may have saved more lives in the process.
Nice write.
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Post by unwritten on Apr 18, 2004 22:30:33 GMT -5
its always best to look at how this might help someone else. i know it hurts like hell, and i know your probably going over in your mind how you could have done something morre to prevent it. all i can say is everything happends for a reason, i have to believe that, cause if not, than so much is just crap (and no one needs to believe that). so i hope you feel better, and can get some closure on what ahppened, i hope theres someone there for you to talk to, and if you need someone you dont know, feel free to email me or something. anyways, nice poem.
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