Tears of Joy, Sweat of Anguish

[Wickedblades666]

I hold the knife to my wrist, lightly brushing the cold passionless metal on my skin, i shudder. I cry, the world closes on me as sweat and tears fall to the floor. I weep, not for myself, but for those that will never see me again, tears of joy, sweat of anguish, They are happy to be rid of me, and god fluants it in my face, tuanting me, telling me i wont do it. I blame you god, screw you, I know i am a sick joke, your sick joke, your toy to torment with firecrackers of depression, god damn god, i spit in his imaginary face, tears of joy, sweat of anguish running down my red hot cheeks, and i realize that god is fake, that death is relief,so i cut and i smile, as my life seeps out like my blood from my wrist, and i fade away, to my happy relief, to my forgiving deep sleep..."f*ck you god"...the last thing i utter, and i die with a smile, with tears of joy and sweat of anguish soaking my face...


this is very controversial...sry, please dont delete it...but i dont have a password yet, for the uncensored, and i didnt want to forget it...

[beginswithKendsinG]

No worries mate. Lemme pm the password to you reply when you have recieved it then I'll move this to uncensored.

[beginswithKendsinG]

By the way, very expressive. And something I have faced also. The metal just feels so good...

[Wickedblades666]

lol...yah, i wasnt having a good couple of days when i wrote that...but it is good for writing i think...and yah, i dont fear death, and i dont mind pain (i rather enjoy it), but i have my msg to the left...i believe it, i just cant kill myself, so when i am dead, it iwill be becuase god has killed me, or at least someone has

[rinna(on leave...for eternity)]

sometimes it just needs to be said. i know where you're coming from, and i thought it was very well written.