I Should Be Used To It

[amelie]

I should be used to it by now;
Every day starts the same.
Where will we be by nightfall?
The ritual of our daily game.

I should be used to it by now;
If I was lucky the night before;
Maybe a note by the bed,
And some tissues on the floor.

I should be used to it by now;
No attempt to conceal the lies.
The casual ease of the excuses;
Indifferent as love dies.

I should be used to it by now;
A cheek to kiss instead of lips,
And vacant eyes averted,
Drumming bored fingertips.

I should be used to it by now,
Forget about the silent phone;
Not stare for hours for signs of life,
Be resigned to nights alone.

I should be used to it by now,
Stay calm and sweetly serene,
When well intentioned friends,
Gloat on where you’ve been seen.

I should be used to it by now;
Not break down each night and cry.
I should be so dam used to it by now,
I’d find the guts to say goodbye.

[bloodredtears]

i really liked this piece...very heartwrenching...i loved the last two lines the best of all...great job!

[Chaotic_Thetis]

Indeed, i liked the layout of each stanza, using the same punctuation in the same places, it emphasises the begining line to each stanze "i should be used to it by now"
Wonderful job Melis ^_^

[amberputis]

You captured this feeling wonderfuly...I feel this way, and this helped me, it was reassuring. amazing job