Seth
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Post by Seth on Feb 21, 2004 12:32:41 GMT -5
I stare out; leaning on the window sill,
Nothing really happening,
Sometimes I wonder if time does stand still-
Never moving, never lifting.
I think a lot about time and hate,
Think about why there is so much pain,
My heart cries as some discriminate
It hurts knowing the world stays the same.
I'm nothing but your average sixteen year old,
I have my drama- so much it hurts,
I've been happy and sad, caged and shown
Given wings to fly and thrown to the dirt.
My soul is withered, I wear a mask as a face,
I'm quite easy to forget.
I am something out of place-
filled with nothing but regret.
I'm alone; my friends have all disappeared,
My parents bickering between one another,
Shedding tear after tear,
Yelling though they aren't together.
My name is Seth, I'm a home-schooler,
I'm sure that makes me seem so dumb,
I dream of becoming a poet and writer
But for now I'll settle with finding a day job.
And that's all there is to know sadly,
No reason for you to come or stay,
I know how I am; so pathetic and lonely
And so I'll understand why you walk away. |
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Post by bloodredtears on Feb 21, 2004 16:37:11 GMT -5
a beautifully painful poem...and very in tune with my life too...my parents are still after each other even though they've been apart for 3 years and my mother is remarried...it's tough...i can't wait to get to know you better! if you ever need anything...i mean anything...feel free to drop me a line...i'm never TOO busy for a friend...and that's what i'm hoping you'll become...i can't wait to read more of your stuff!
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Post by Sathien on Feb 22, 2004 3:44:40 GMT -5
and so I'll understand why you walk awayhey, i'm staying.  i have the same problem with my parents. ah, life. anyhow, nice to meet you here!
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Post by JosephScottMorris on Feb 22, 2004 12:43:51 GMT -5
Seth,
A beautiful poem indeed, keep writing your going to be Great! ;DJoe
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Seth
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Post by Seth on Jul 9, 2004 23:30:22 GMT -5
JUNEI've had fewer showdowns with my mom. I'm now calling my mom, "mom" instead of mother. My 15 yr old brother and I (who I've been really close to since we were born) are starting to grow apart. My dad is going to teach me how to drive. I'm finally allowed to go to a mall by myself. I can fix a DVD Player without instructions. JULYI celebrated July 4th by myself. My driving lesson canceled because of the rain flooding the streets. I've learned smiling is a lot funner than frowning, though I haven't lost my depressing outlook on life. I might be working with my brother's off and on again-slightly psychotic-girlfriend. And that about sums up June and July for ya. Everything in life changes, that's the only thing you can count on...
It's nobody's fault when your mom is one step away from being broke.
It's not because of God, that you have a brother who wishes you'd croak.
There isn't any reason for the tears that fall out of both happiness and shame.
And when you break-down and lose it, nobody but me is to blame.
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Post by bloodredtears on Aug 27, 2004 23:32:20 GMT -5
wow..sounds like your life and mine are paralleling.....i started talking to my mom again at the very tail end of may! oh and I also have a 15 year old brother who is becoming more and more confusing to me...
oh and i loved that little piece you stuck in at the end there! great rhyming and its got a great message, if not all together true...circumstances are beyond our control...something that i've found to be true after trying for so long to deny it!
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Seth
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Post by Seth on Sept 20, 2004 16:39:11 GMT -5
I know what you mean. Sometimes we try to prevent something from happening yet despite our efforts it happens anyway. Other things that we do want, never come. Then you realize you've wasted so much time trying to control something that is unfortunately out of your control.... ------------------------------------------ Well, today has sucked big time. Joking... Actually, I've been having a relatively calm and good time with life, it seems I'm finally getting my well-deserved break from tragedy and torment. Still, it feels so boring and just so eerie... I'm so used to something going wrong that I... I'm totally clueless on feeling like this. Eh, I'm sure something will happen--something big-- and then I'll be crying for these boring days to come back.  I already have this major headache and cold, I totally feel sick and ugh, just lousy...  Blah, blah, blah... I hate when I talk about nonsense, stupid nonsense no less... |
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i have the same problem with my parents. ah, life. anyhow, nice to meet you here!