Im so frusterated with myself

[amberputis]

I feel like the dumbest person in the world. I obviously write a lot, that was my #1 reason for joining this site, and sometimes you cant help but write what it in your heart, and so i do. I write when im frusterated or happy, and i say things i eventually may look down on and totally disagree with in the end...i always used to keep my writings to myself until i found my first love. He made my life unimaginable...but we were forced apart because of reasons id rather not say. He opened me and allowed me to share whats in my head, and well we decided to be apart, for it was our only choice...and i wrote some things out of frusteration and well, let him read them. I wish i could rewind...but i cant. Now my feelings have been misinterpretated, and im heartbroken.....theres so much more to the story but i haven't the time....if anyone has any encouraging words, i would be ecstatic to hear them....i feel alone and disappointed.
thanks for listening---sorry for not explaing too much...such an emotional subject.

[leash]

that is very sad to hear, amberputis. it seems that lifes rollercoaster has you at a low right now, no? do not worry too much.. things will get better with time.

make sure that you continue writing poetry. it is an incredible way to express and vent your emotions.

i hope my words were encouraging enough to cheer you up at least a little bit.

[amberputis]

thank you so much for even the smallest bit of effort, it's a great feeling to know that people will actually listen and take time to try and help....thanks again

[bloodredtears]

i know how it is to write poetry for someone you love...i've done it...and i read it to him...and, well lets just say he didn't reply how i was praying he would...it really sucked...and so, i wrote some more...this time the mood changed, it was no longer romantic...the sad thing is, i still haven't gotten over him, so i'm still writing stuff about him...it really blows...
being in love is a tough thing...keep your chin up...the best thing you can do is to go on, to prove you're strong enough without him!

[T.J. Barber]

Come on Kris...Encourage her..don't plague her with your sorrow. I'm only joking. No, love is a very tedious thing. It can make lives,shake lives, and break lives. No one knows this better than those who have loved and lost. There is an old saying most everyone has heard it. It states that it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved before. I welcome anyone to try it if that's what they think. Love is a very dangerous thing however we cannot let it damage our spirits. You are a great poet Amberputis and I know that by your words you are hurting. However, you will move on and you will love again. That's the great thing about love...is that it always remains.

[bloodredtears]

i wasn't plauging her with my sorrow (at least i hope i didn't)...yes i realize it was a joke, but sometimes sharing sorrows can actually lift the spirit...it sure helps me to know that i'm not the only one who feels a certain way!

[Persephone]

We have to experience pain to appreciate bliss. There is nothing we can do about it except ride through the waves of anguish. It's your choice whether you would let that destroy or create a better you. It might not feel that way for now because the first step is always the hardest. The hardest thing is to let go. We can't always expect people to think like we do.

Surely you haven't met everybody in the world to gauge that you're the dumbest. ^.*

Prayers and periwinkle winds,
Penny

[amberputis]

My words can hardly do it's justice for how appreciative I am that I got the replys I did. Reading what everyone here has to say, is very reassuring and comforting. Thanks again... due to this post that I wrote, and the replys that I have gotten, makes me feel like I have a new family of friends.

[T.J. Barber]

We are only here to help you. We are a family and as such we should be expected to help you and we will. As long as you need help we will be here. Always,

Tj

[SilverEyes]

Amber, I was in a similar experience. I really liked this one guy and he really liked me too but for certain reasons we couldn't be together. I was only with him for less than a day and just that little bit of time together inspired me to write poetry long after we had decided to see other people. However, there was still this flame between us. Anyway, we kept talking and eventually, I showed him some of what I'd written. Luckily, he had a good reaction to it. Now I'm not telling you this to depress you but to say that someday(hopefully soon) you'll find someone who will read your poetry, understand it, and accept its message with open arms.