A Touch

[T.J. Barber]

You touched another man while supposedly loving me.
Why the hell would you do that? Tell me, cause I can't see.

Your a slut and I hate you for it but I love you at the same time...Why must my heart feel so wrounged and yet still love you ohh so strong?

Nothing you say can make it better. You only make it worse. Why must I feel this way for you? I swear I must be cursed.

I hate everything about you now but love you still the same.. I feel as if I'm lost in some sort of boy toy game.

I'm not your play thing that you can come running to when your feeling alone. I have a heart and it hurts for you but it's turning into stone.

I hate every inch of your being for letting him inside.
But, nothing changes my love for you and that I cannot hide.

Why the hell am I hurting so just to take you back again? I feel as if i'm lost inside a giant whirlwind.
You played me for a fool and broke my heart and then you let another have you and yet you run back and I take you.....what the hell is wrong with me

I must be kind inside to see a true love behind that jaded mask your using to hide yourself from me.
I can see a future so clear and true and love inside both me and you but right now all that I want to see is me making his future bleak.

I hate you and I love you and that just doesn't make since. Why the hell am I feeling this way?

I wish I didn't exist...................

[beginswithKendsinG]

But you do exist, my friend
So I will offer up my hand
Brush you off, and send you on your way again.

It's hard I know, You wanna do the right thing
You see that face, look into those eyes
And the wound begins to sting

You could see a future, oh so clear
But it didn't matter, she gave into her fears
Walked across to another path
And now you can't sleep 'cause of the wrath

They say, "all is fair"
But honor still rings true.
You are who you are
and there is nothing wrong with you

It shows that you are strong willed man
Compassionate to a fault
But you gotta understand
No matter what the reason, it is ok to feel this way
And its ok that its her name, you say who's to blame

[T.J. Barber]

Thanks Kem. I needed that little pick me up. I just feel betrayed and I feel hurt more than anything ya know? I just feel like if she says she loves me then she shouldn't have done that to me...but I love her so much that I cannot hurt her...I guess i'm just love struck or just plain crazy...who knows.

Tj

[bloodredtears]

that piece was amazing TJ...sucky cuz stuff like that should never happen! especially to the nice guys....
i guess i've never been in that boat so i can't really offer up an opinion based on experience...but i can say...its probably best to forget her...
a person who can profess their love while cheating on someone isn't in love...at least not the kind of love that matters...
i really think that you'd be better off with someone else...and i'm sure in time the heartache will go away! Chin up! The bright side of things may go dark, but the dark side of things can only get lighter!
Hugz,
Kris

[::..::FoX::..::]

TJ, this is awesome my friend. I must say, this is one of your best writes of all time in my opinion. I love the anger and the passion fused together to make this piece great! Keep it up!

Fox

[Seth]

I'm afraid it's a routine game, despite the pain and betrayal it's too hard to let go sometimes. You've masterfully written out your heartbroken emotion and troubles, nicely structured and so easy to understand.
Sorry about what you're going through, but I must say you've written something I and most of us can relate to.

[QueenofDarkness]

This work made me feel like I was inside your heart and your mind. I felt everything you feel and this is the exact way I feel about my ex husband but the love is no longer there. It passes.

[T.J. Barber]

Thanks guys, I needed those words of encouragement and I thank you all for the good feedback on the poem. I appreciate you all very much.

TJ