Most Heavenly Place

[Seth]

You never let me go, when I wanted to fall.
I could never escape to the underworld; Hell,
Because you held my hand so tightly.
When I dreamt of leaving and tried to stray,
You held me firmly in your unwanted, yet loving embrace.

I tried to cheat and lie; get you to leave,
But all in vain. 'Cause you'd never be out of my life.
Everyday I mourned the loss of the happy me,
I hated who I became; this girl without a smile...
I hated myself so much, that I wanted to die,
But once again you kept me alive.

Somehow in my darkest times, through times of uncertainty,
You saw the heart that laid dormant inside,
And somehow, someway, you resonated it easily.
The blackest clouds hung over low,
The light only a flicker through the rain...
And no matter how badly I wanted to go,
Your face was stronger than my suicidal dreams.

I owe you more, though you say it's your job;
To love and protect with your own life.
You tell me I am the most important thing,
Without me your life is no longer in tact.
And you know, I think I believe you
When you say you love me.

Even if it took a while,
I can finally see the light in the world,
I can see for once quite clearly,
And hear you voice that has always been cheering.
And I don't think I could ever go back to my old depression,
Something about your angelic face, dear mother,
Keeps me in the most heavenly place.

[rinna(on leave...for eternity)]

seth,
WOW. the form in this write was excellent, the pace, the content. fantastic!
x rinna x

[angel]

omg this almost made me cry. My eyes got a lil watery. it is amazing just ONE person can change your life drastically and can change decisions for the better...completely awesome

[thisisnotanexit]

although it is satirized in many movies and its theme is mentioned in some music, suicide (and cutting, etc.) is not a subject to be taken lightly. it's scary and i've recenetly dealt with it personally. if you or anyone you know ever considers it, please reconsider. life is too precious and there are other ways to cope; it solves nothing. please keep this in mind and remember that the dark clouds will lift. you are not alone, remember that. life is a beautiful thing and you will see that if you be strong and believe. thigns better and this too shall pass. find help if you need it, its out there. contact me if you want, take care

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[Alex'z Death Chic]

oh god... I'm with angel on this one... It made me want to cry... Sometimes you feel as if walls are caving in, as if the land under your feet is crumbling before you... that your whole world is withering away.... then someone saves you... gives you another reason for your existence... becomes the most important reason... love of someone dear, someone close is all you need to survive... because if they do love you as much as they say they do, they'll stay with you even if you push them away continuously. I should know... the ones who promised to love me forever are holding on to their promise until this day... If ever this was based on real life, I'm happy for you seth. I'm glad that you've found your strength from the love your mother has for you...