i could learn to hate you

[rinna(on leave...for eternity)]

you are my cancer
ever growing
always lingering
you make me sick to the pit of my stomach

how do you expect me
to help you
to love you
to need you
when you can't even see
you've hurt me

as you tumble in your
chaotic jumble of a life
i am ever present
always have been
always will
you manage to punch me in the face
your acidic tongue burning me
i have tried so hard to love you

why can't i ever be happy
no matter how deluded
and engrossed you are in yourself
you keep an eye out
to stomp on my heart

i've never done anything to wrong you
so why do you keep coming back

i don't think i can love you anymore