Misery

[Alex'z Death Chic]

I hide in myself crying my tears
whenever you're sad because of her
I'll never have all of you
knowing that you'll be thinking of her
you're too engrossed in her problems
that they've blinded you
to a point that you can't see me
Are you truly mine?
because sometimes I doubt it
when she comes running to you
crying her heart out
that all you want to do is hold her
even if it means that you have to let go
of me...
when you're depressed
I try to bring a smile on your face
but I always fail
I always fail....
She's the only one who can succeed
without any effort at all
so what am I to do?
when I sit here all alone
wishing that everything will be fine
when I'm holding you close
I wonder if she's the one you're thinking about
you say you love me
and I block doubts from my head
but then they always seem to find some way
somehow they're always there to taunt me
you love her too
I know that...
she's special to you
I know that...
to you, she's the most beautiful person in the world
what am I to do?
Stay silent forever
loving you
wishing that everything will be fine
even though I know that it'll never be
it'll never be fine
because she'll always be there
in your mind
in your heart
in your soul
in my tears...
what I to do?
when you say you love me
and show it to another?
only one thing...
insecurity...


note: I need advice. I fear that what I'm holding onto is water. The more I try to hold on, the more of it escapes and in the end, I'm left with nothing. She's his bestfriend. She loves him more than a friend. I dunno what to do. Should I let go?

[bloodredtears]

This is an amazing piece...for pure artistic talent it is wonderful....as to your needing advice...there is a quote that says something like "if you love someone, let them go, and if they come back to you, it was meant to be..." sometimes the hardest thing to do when you love someone is let them go, but everyone needs a chance to experience other things before they can know what is the best for them...i'll leave my advice at that...you're young yet! it'll all work out for the best!

[KG]

You know, when I was dating my girlfriend their was still another girl that I was always there for. The girl didnt have a big brother and I was that role model for her. When she was sad I held her told her it was ok, then talk to her about her boy-friend, and send her back to him. I never had feelings for her in the same sense I did with my other girlfriends, but there were feeelings none the less. Yes it was love, but the kind of love you give a family member. She was the little sister I had to look out for. Because I never let her go and balanced her with my girlfriend, who I truly love to my very marrow, she married her boy-friend and I was there to talk her out of a suicide attempt, and save her from the next time. That girl is on my mind sometimes, but only to think if she is ok, and if she needs help from her "big-brother".

[Alex'z Death Chic]

Thanks guys. I really appreciate it. I know I'm being rather irrational to be insecure over such a little thing but I can't help it... Again, thanks guys.

[KG]

Naw you arent being irrational, If I had my gf going around huggin other dudes somebody is gonna get rocked, I could care les if they are freinds or not you know?