My new found hobby

[alostandbrokensoul]

I love the scars on my body
the razors stinging kiss,
I love my new found hobby
the everlasting sin.

I love the little game I play
to hide each and every scar,
so no one will see them
Ive done so good so far.

Ive hidden my depression
almost as well as my scars,
they know of my unhappiness,
but not my horrific wars.

I write of my depression
everytime I selfharm,
the cuts have never been that deep
to signal for alarm.

I hate it when people ask me
if I am ok,
because its just a reminder
that Im not each day.

I hate it when those people say
I do it for attention,
so how can that be possibe,
if I hide them from my own obsession.

I love the razors kiss
the stinging pain I feel,
I hate all those people
who dont even know what's real.

I hide my obsession
the scars upon my skin,
my lasting depression
the pain I feel within.

I hate the way I love it
the blade inside my fingers,
I love my obsession
and how the pain just lingers.

[bloodredtears]

this is a really great piece it expresses your emotion so well...it scares me to think that you really enjoy cutting, because it's so harmful...but i'm not going to give you a huge lecture on it...just be careful! i hope things get better, even if that's not how it usually works out, hugz!

[Seth]

Hm, it does become a sort of
twisted hobby doesn't it?
Interesting and wonderful portrayal
of a very deep dark secret.
Cutting is a very intense and drastic thing,
but sometimes it's or at least seems,
the only answer...
Awesome write,
I love everything about this,
especially the last stanza.