If you only knew

[alostandbrokensoul]

I have an online diary and my sister read it and found out about my depression but it doesnt matte b/c Ive told my parents but oh well like they care. Anyways there may be a few errors but it's late and im to lazy to fix them. Hope you like it.

She knows of my depression
the pain that I feel
how I try to make an impression
how my smiles are never real.

She blocks out the voices
the screaming that she hears
all of my hard choices
my intertwining fears.

She knows of my past
the blood that Ive spilt
her comfort never lasts
but she doesnt feel guilt.

Like everyone else
she turns me away
I know she wont tell
there's nothing there to say.

She turns her back on me
she can't explain my pain
I guess she doesnt see
humanity's to blame.

She knows of my tears
the crying at night
how Im subtile to my fears
the darkness I must fight.

Like everyone I know
I have to be fine
Keep my unhappiness at its low
make sure not to unwind.

Perfection is stupid
happiness is too
Im just a dumb kid
yeah, if you only knew.

[cherryXchapstick]

i like this. '')

[Seth]

Mmhm, I can definately relate to this-very much so indeed.
Wonderful flow simply rolls off the tongue.
Your emotion and raw voice is real and undeniably strong throughout this.
I've been there before, it bites and is often killer.
Lovely done.