The Cry For Help

[Horn]

The Cry for Help
I need someone,
Or else I'm going to break,TEXT
I can't take the first step towards you.

You are hounding my mind,
I can't help it,
But I know I can't have you, in all my fears

I'm going to do something dumb, I will be rejected, fail,
I'll mess up, I can't do this by myself…
I don't know how to act or what to tell you.

I'm not even sure how I should feel…
Not even sure if love exists…
I am not sure about anything anymore…

What do I say?
I can't start this off, I hope I can find you…
I will have to let the river run its course…

But, time is money, you can't ever get it back,
Always ticking, ticking, ticking./. The sand is running out,
And I haven't found you yet... I'm not sure if I will…

I want to share with someone,
Anyone, who will listen, understand,
Someone who will see me from the inside../

Only then will I tear down my walls and
And let those come inside me
I need to be freed… please… take off my chains..

I don't know how to say it,
Who to go to, how to start towards you…
I need confidence, self-assurance so I know I am taking the right path..

I want someone to hug me,
Someone to tell me they really care…
But I can't take the first step,

I don't even know if I will find you in my journey
I need to find you, or I won't see a purpose in this life..
Failure, no matter what I do otherwise

Once I find you, once my search is over,
Although I am still at the base of this mountain
We have to take small, baby steps, one by one to reach the peak..

This rope is tightened around my neck
Help me loosen the knots... I am being choked…
I can not breathe…

Once I find someone, anyone,
I will protect you with my life, I will never leave you,
I will love you, like an angel

Anything to keep this from slipping away…
I need you, whoever you may be,
Wherever you come from…

I see everyone all around me,
Finding someone, being in a group,
While here I stand, secluded and alone…

I am on the outside looking in,
I am looking out from my own prison of despair
The bars are too tight

And I know that I cannot leave
Without someone coming inside by themselves
And taking the key to unlock my prison door..

Will I stay here forever? I can't do this, no one will come…
I am looking out at the smiling faces, all the laughter is
Creating in me a buried rage, depression, and despair

Because I know this feeling will not leave
Until I find you…
If I find you…

I am starving of love and
I live in a place where all is served
Is the poisoned food of the greedy

Where success is measured in dollars and cents
Instead of happiness, if it even exists,
Where many have strayed from the true path at hand.

I think I am losing it,
I am on a cliff, hanging with one hand,
My fingers are starting to slip,

My grasp fails,
I am falling, ever falling, falling...
Please, someone please catch me,

Anyone, help,
No one will save me,
Please help me..................

[T.J. Barber]

WOW!

This was extremely long and enduring. However, I found the heart-felt nature to be soothing and amuzing.
It had a lot of parts that raised several of my senses. I enjoyed it on the whole. Also, I can truly appreciate the complexity of this piece. Great write, TJ

[Hunter]

Very, very good.