Post by angel on Jun 22, 2004 14:04:00 GMT -5
Ok, this is the longest poem I have ever written...and it is very different from what I normally write. It isn't one of my best works and there are many points where it could be cut off as the ending..but it was major venting here. Sorry if you do not have time to read all of this. It got pretty long. I would say that I like the beginning...but it flakes a lil off and on after that. Oh well, I hope you enjoy 
Life Story
“Everybody carries a cross-
Some are bigger-
Some are smaller-
Some are heavier-
Some are lighter”
When you become depressed-
You forget this
Turning your life-
Into selfish acts-
And frustration
Becoming blind-
To happiness
Saying hello-
To negativity-
Hurt-
Mistrust-
…pain
Pushing all friends away
Not wanting to get sympathy-
But wanting something-
You can’t grasp
But now you have-
No friends-
To fill that emptiness-
And it is all your fault
Then later-
When you come out-
Of your shell
You see that you no longer-
Are in the loop-
You no longer belong
And the realization-
That you did this to yourself-
Hits you like a rock-
And pounds you to the ground
Deeper-
And deeper-
To the point-
That you are in the same rut again-
And it feels like-
Someone has locked you out-
From being normal-
To keep you from happiness
Swallowing the key-
Choking it back up-
Swallowing it again-
Teasing you-
And laughing in your face
Then there is a point-
Where you stare in the mirror-
And you feel ugly-
Inside-
And out
For people don’t make it better-
Teasing you-
Every day-
Is pick-on-Megan-day-
For you are easy to pick on-
Because you are too serious-
And you don’t fight back-
You just take it in
Like a mosquito-
Attacking you-
Taking little bites-
Making you itch like hell-
Swatting at it-
But it’s too fast-
And goes for more blood-
Giving you more pain-
And remaining a nuisance-
That wont go away
Then there are the people-
That die in your life-
That meant so much to you
One minute healthy-
Next minute-
Death bed
Why did she do that to us?
Then the opposite sex-
I am picky-
Always picky-
Set down my boundaries-
Always get hurt-
Making it harder-
And harder to trust
Why does that always-
Have to happen to me?
Then there is the trying-
Trying to be good-
Trying to compliment people-
Make them smile-
Make their day
Trying so much-
That you try to reach perfection
But that is impossible-
Nobody can be perfect-
So you lose yourself-
You start to become crazy-
Plastic smile on your face-
While a drill-
Goes deeper-
And deeper-
In your heart-
For people start using you-
Taking advantage of you
And all you can do-
Is keep on going-
And hope that some day-
You will eventually-
Wake up-
With a smile on your face
Now you lost God-
You’re trying to find hope-
But missing the equation
Slowly deteriorating-
Melting pieces at your feet
A room full of people-
All of whom you know-
And you feel invisible
And the realization hits you-
That nobody there-
Cares
Trying to fight the tears-
Some how succeeding-
Pain wells your stomach-
The sense of not belonging
You did it to yourself-
It could have been different-
You chose a different road-
A cold-
Dark-
Rocky road-
Dealing with consequences-
That no teenager should have to deal with-
Especially alone
The pills become tempting-
The blood seems so close-
But an empty promise-
Stays in the back of the mind-
Not wanting to let them down-
You stay to your word-
And if you didn’t-
You wouldn’t be enjoying-
The life you are living-
The happiness ahead of you
And the feeling of finally-
Getting out of that dark hole-
On a lighted path-
And fighting for that key
You can not give up-
It shows weakness-
Just have to fight-
Remain strong-
And be optimistic-
Cuz pessimistic-
Is just a pest-
And it leads you to a road-
That will make it difficult to find-
The right path again
It is all within the attitude you hold-
So choose wisely
6/21/04
Life Story
“Everybody carries a cross-
Some are bigger-
Some are smaller-
Some are heavier-
Some are lighter”
When you become depressed-
You forget this
Turning your life-
Into selfish acts-
And frustration
Becoming blind-
To happiness
Saying hello-
To negativity-
Hurt-
Mistrust-
…pain
Pushing all friends away
Not wanting to get sympathy-
But wanting something-
You can’t grasp
But now you have-
No friends-
To fill that emptiness-
And it is all your fault
Then later-
When you come out-
Of your shell
You see that you no longer-
Are in the loop-
You no longer belong
And the realization-
That you did this to yourself-
Hits you like a rock-
And pounds you to the ground
Deeper-
And deeper-
To the point-
That you are in the same rut again-
And it feels like-
Someone has locked you out-
From being normal-
To keep you from happiness
Swallowing the key-
Choking it back up-
Swallowing it again-
Teasing you-
And laughing in your face
Then there is a point-
Where you stare in the mirror-
And you feel ugly-
Inside-
And out
For people don’t make it better-
Teasing you-
Every day-
Is pick-on-Megan-day-
For you are easy to pick on-
Because you are too serious-
And you don’t fight back-
You just take it in
Like a mosquito-
Attacking you-
Taking little bites-
Making you itch like hell-
Swatting at it-
But it’s too fast-
And goes for more blood-
Giving you more pain-
And remaining a nuisance-
That wont go away
Then there are the people-
That die in your life-
That meant so much to you
One minute healthy-
Next minute-
Death bed
Why did she do that to us?
Then the opposite sex-
I am picky-
Always picky-
Set down my boundaries-
Always get hurt-
Making it harder-
And harder to trust
Why does that always-
Have to happen to me?
Then there is the trying-
Trying to be good-
Trying to compliment people-
Make them smile-
Make their day
Trying so much-
That you try to reach perfection
But that is impossible-
Nobody can be perfect-
So you lose yourself-
You start to become crazy-
Plastic smile on your face-
While a drill-
Goes deeper-
And deeper-
In your heart-
For people start using you-
Taking advantage of you
And all you can do-
Is keep on going-
And hope that some day-
You will eventually-
Wake up-
With a smile on your face
Now you lost God-
You’re trying to find hope-
But missing the equation
Slowly deteriorating-
Melting pieces at your feet
A room full of people-
All of whom you know-
And you feel invisible
And the realization hits you-
That nobody there-
Cares
Trying to fight the tears-
Some how succeeding-
Pain wells your stomach-
The sense of not belonging
You did it to yourself-
It could have been different-
You chose a different road-
A cold-
Dark-
Rocky road-
Dealing with consequences-
That no teenager should have to deal with-
Especially alone
The pills become tempting-
The blood seems so close-
But an empty promise-
Stays in the back of the mind-
Not wanting to let them down-
You stay to your word-
And if you didn’t-
You wouldn’t be enjoying-
The life you are living-
The happiness ahead of you
And the feeling of finally-
Getting out of that dark hole-
On a lighted path-
And fighting for that key
You can not give up-
It shows weakness-
Just have to fight-
Remain strong-
And be optimistic-
Cuz pessimistic-
Is just a pest-
And it leads you to a road-
That will make it difficult to find-
The right path again
It is all within the attitude you hold-
So choose wisely
6/21/04
