This big game

[GPRacer]

Well once again i've lost at this game
Maybe it's just my skill seems to be lame.
They say i'm this great guy
But there is still one thing that i dunno why.
I can never seem to win
My luck is just constantly too thin.
Every time it's just a smack in the face
I think i'd rather get sprayed with mase.
Probably because it would happen just one time
Then i could think about something else to rhyme.
I hate the way this game gets played
At least the girls i like aren't goin out every night gettin laid
Sometimes i just want to get out of here
Leave everything behind including my fear.
Hopefully one day it'll go my way
Until then i'll just have to find a new style to play.
Maybe it's just the way i'm playing
But everyday i'm still praying.
I really get tired of seein all these guys w/ their girl
Seeing all the time makes me wanna hurl.
I really want a girl too
One that likes me for me and not following you.
But oh well.
Losing to this game i'm nothing new.
I just want to win once and a while
Soo many times i've gone that extra mile.
I really hate getting that slap in the face
Maybe i need to slow down and not compare it to a race.
It sucks to think that only I care
Maybe it's because to me it doesn't matter what i wear?
I just wish i could find someone only for me
Then from this game i'll be free.
I like to think i'm ahead
Then here it comes
And my emotions get fled.
I always put my mind on one to go for
Then in my head i hear the roar.
To this day i've always lost
At least i know i'm not the only one suffering this cost.
This has happened so many times before
You'd think i'd learn by now
But i always seem to be begging for more.
I guess to often i've "found" that special girl i'm lookin for.
But then it seems it's not
I really wish i could figure out this games plot.

[GPRacer]

(continuation)
Hopefully one day she'll come
I just wish i knew where i'm receiving her from.
I wish i could play this game
Instead the game just plays me.
I guess for many more times that's just how it's gotta be.
I hope one day i'll be filled with glee
Maybe i won't have anything until the day i take a knee.
I meet these girls and get to know them a lot
But soo many times it's a struggle that i've fought.
Eventually this game will end
And bows to my wife,
i will send.
I pray the day will come soon
And i hope the girl i like talks to ME before noon.
The feeling of loneliness is about as fun as being stabbed with a rusted spoon.
The game of LOVE is a huge twist
The names of girls i've been rejected by makes way too long of a list.
This game is unconditionally cruel
But i know one day i'll have my turn to rule.
This is a game where i'm constantly on a mission
But yet i'm still doing one thing
just sitting here wishin
That one day me and a girl will be unified
But still i stand here stupified.
From this game i just want to hide
But at the same time in life
I need a helping stride
someone to push me along
especially when i'm in the wrong.
I'm soo tired of just being a good friend
It seems my heart is just something i lend
I just wish i could have someone elses heart
Then i could give them mine.
But that would be way to easy
It'd require some sort of a line
This game is beginning to get cheasy.
I wouldn't think it's meant to be this hard
I'm playing poker with a fortune teller and keep drawing the same card.
I wouldn't think it should be this way
But i suppose the standard person would learn to give up when it's the same thing every day
Everybody will say
One day it'll be okay.
The first few times it gave me hope
But now i'm nearing the end of the rop.
This rope i wish would just BREAK
I can only WISH this crap was FAKE
And that one day i could just wake...

[GPRacer]

i know this poem is long...but surely someone has read it and has a comment...

[NeverMore]

Well, this hermit on the mountain has read it *S* I must say you sure know how to put your heart into what you write. I enjoyed it very much despite the length. For some it seems long, but I guess they have not read old english poetry, this is short comapred to that.

I hope you do not mind, I always feel compelled to give a little advice when I see this feeling. Hopefully one day I can hear my own advice too.

What you seek is likely right under your nose, but you will not find it, until you STOP looking for it. Don't give up, just let it come to you. I hope lasting love finds you my friend *S*

[bloodredtears]

ok, sorry that it took me so long to get to it, but i've been out of the loop, and YES i read the entired thing, and it is quite true that its not nearly as long as old english, which we were forced to read in high school.

i totally know how you feel, cuz i'm in this dumb game too...and it sucks! great job!

[GPRacer]

thanks for the comments

and NeverMore-- that's exactly what i'm doing. Not giving up on the game, but i'm just not playing it either

I guess in "athletic" terms you could consider what i'm now doing as spectating. Haven't given up, but not playing

[kt]

I read it! It isn't too long, and clearly illustrates your thoughts, which echo many people's sentiments about the love 'game'. I found it a little stilted in places, as though you felt a little self-conscious writing it, but overall the slightly aggressive tempo works for me, and it's nice for this girlie to see the man's point of view